Trying Something New

Hey Readers (all 2 of you)!

I'm back after a brief hiatus. I went on vacation - a caribbean cruise. But I'm back now and ready to blog again.

So, I got back into Southern California on Friday afternoon and that night I sang at First Fridays. First Fridays is an awesome ministry that brings Christian artists (singers, musicians, poets, actors) together to share their gifts. It's not just a talent show. People actually get saved at this monthly event. It's great!

Anyway, Terri, my roomate (and agent), volunteered me and Candiss to sing our song at First Fridays a few weeks ago. My immediate reaction was "Absolutely not!" I had no interest in doing it. I mentioned above that First Fridays is a excellent ministry, but the crowd is mostly 20 something men and women who are into gospel/r&b/rap and I just KNEW my little acoustic guitar-driven song was going to be laughed off the stage and me right along with it. I was being dramatic, of course, and was talked into doing it anyway (thanks Stef), but this brings me to something I've come to learn and accept about myself.

I am NOT a performer. I wouldn't even call myself a singer. I couldn't get too excited about singing at FF because I have no desire to be on stage wowing an audience. And the only reason I did it (other than the fact that Stef/Terri/Kelvin told me to) is because "I Wait" (the song Candiss and I wrote) has a great message and it is a pretty good song. I wanted to share that message. If I were just asked to sing any old random song, I probably wouldn't have done it.

I am not a performer. I am not a singer (meaning, I'm not good enough nor am I striving to be winning any Grammy's). I am a worshipper. I'm not knocking performers or singers. Many of the Christian artists I like give good shows and thank God they are amazing vocalists. But I know me. My heart is for worship. I enjoy leading worship in front of a congregation of people. But I'm also fine standing behind the leader or with the choir.

All that being said, singing at First Fridays with Candiss was a lot of fun (after I got over the nervousness) and people actually did seem to accept the song and the message we were trying to share. The conclusion? Though, I'm not a singer or a performer, God can still use me in a performance setting. And that's pretty cool.